shooting stars

My life?

It’s a mess.

I often think about what could have happened if I chose another way to walk along. Maybe I should have chosen ways that were not covered with huge rocks and stones that I have to climb over.

Maybe I should have chosen a way that was easier to go along.

Maybe I should have thought different when I was younger.

Maybe I should have tried…I should have tried to face my problems and I should not have pretended not to have them.

Maybe….I should not use the word maybe because actually, it makes everything worse. 

Well, probably there are many people who have the same thoughts like me. The most of them don't like to talk about their feelings because many just want to keep secrets and others just are ashamed of themselves. I have lots of thoughts about life and death and I always think about "WHAT IF?" I think it's time to talk about it and I want to share my thoughts with you. I want to share my feelings and I want to let you know what I think about this life here.

How often do we think "It's time to change my life and myself and t do better!" How often do think about ourselves and how often do we think we are not good enough and we just want to be different than others. Every person is influenced by others. And this person probably is extremely influenced by those so he or she doesn't even know what she truly loves in life because this person just wants others to like her or him. It's hard to go our own way in this world. We all are affected by material possessions and we all want to be successful in life and have a good payed job and we we want to live in a huge flat with nice, expensive furniture. We have forgot what's truly important in life. We actually have forgot what we really want and why we do live. We have forgot who we are and we don't know which way to go because others rule our lives already. We are influenced by those who want prosperity and beauty.   

If you have encountered obstacles in your life you may understand. I do not talk about little problems but big ones. I talk about having experiences which change you life. I did have experiences which changed my life..but in a bad way. I am waiting for a miracle which finally wakes me up in this world. I am kind of asleep and I feel like I am missing a lot of things here. I am waiting for shooting stars so I can make a wish. 

The thing is, we all want a change in our own lives. Most of us don't want to live like they do right now. But I don't know how we finally can break out from this disgusting cage we are locked in. It's hard to get the strength for this. Words can't do this for us. We really need to wake up because how it is right now we can't continue this. There must be a change otherwise this world will fall apart.